When It Comes To You (Part 5)
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shozi_sakurai The dreams repeated for several nights and Jun still didn’t have any memories of it. Thinking that it was enough, Sho talked to Jun during breakfast.
“Don’t you want to see your psychiatrist, Jun?”
“Why should I?”
“You have been having nightmares.”
“I don’t remember any of that.”
Sho sighed. “Fine.” Sho said.
Jun blinked. ‘Why?’ he thought. Why Sho didn’t push him more? Was he tired of him already? Jun actually did remember of the dreams. After several nights of sleeping feeling disoriented, Jun finally realized what Sho was saying. Yes, he had a nightmare. In the dream, he saw how his family got into the accidents. He saw the car came from the front of their car, the lights were blinding. And then it was nothing. He felt numb, and then nothing. But he didn't want to say that to Sho. He didn't want Sho to know. Because he was afraid. And it hurts. It hurts so much.
Not noticing Jun’s gloomy thoughts, Sho stood up and grabbed his coat. “Do you need a ride to the studio?” He asked Jun.
Jun shook his head as the answer.
“Okay. Be careful on the way there.” Sho said before dropping a kiss to Jun’s forehead. Jun gave a small nod. Sho walked to his car and drove off to the office afterwards.
***
Sho didn’t drove off to the office, instead he went to the hospital to meet Jun’s psychiatrist. He has made an appointment beforehand, before he asked Jun to see the doctor himself, knowing Jun’s answer would be negative. Sho was hurt with Jun thought that he couldn’t read him. Who was he kidding? He knew Jun remember those dreams. But what made him said those lies was what Sho could not understand. Didn’t Jun trust him? Sho heaved a heavy sigh. He has arrived at the hospital compound. He tried to calm himself down before he stepped out of the car. It wouldn’t do any good if he was meeting the doctor while feeling so much in stress. When he has calmed enough, Sho got out from his car and walked into the hospital’s building. Getting into the psychiatric department, Sho rode the lift to level 5 where Jun’s doctor’s office located. He knocked on the door and came in at the soft answer came from the inside of the room.
“Good morning, doctor.” Sho greeted slowly.
“Hello Sakurai- san, good morning.” The doctor replied. “What’s up? You looked so stressed this early in the morning.”
Sho smiled at the teasing. He was glad that this doctor was really considerate towards his patients. Giving light humour like that would ease the nerves of the patients who usually in tense whenever they went to seepsychiatrist.
“Yo. Long time no see.” Sho retorted back.
“I would like to say the same to you.”
Sho really could just smile. “You see, I’m not sure if it’s actually me or my partner that needed your help.” He started.
“I would say you both needed it. How was your boyfriend?” the doctor asked while gesturing to Sho to sit on the chair in front of him.
“Not much. He was shutting off again.”
“I see..”
“He has been having nightmares.”
“Since when?” the doctor asked while noting in Jun’s record book.
“Last 3 days? Or 4?” Sho counted back the nights he woke up to Jun’s screaming.
“Do you know what caused it?”
“Jun got back his memories. He asked me about what happened before. In his past life. So I kind of told him everything.”
“Just told him everything or to the extent you went to places?”
“How do you know?” Sho can’t help but to ask. Psychiatrist, really. “We went to places. His old house, the graveyard and.. the place where the accident occurred.” Sho stuttered.
The doctor sighed. “How was his reaction?”
‘It’s the same question as Nino’s!’ Sho thought internally. “He cried. He seemed to have accepted it but a few days after he started to get the nightmares.” Sho explained.
“That’s normal. People don’t usually react to things happened around them immediately. Just when they were calm enough to finally process the things, it comes down to them of what actually happened. At that time they will show the real emotion. How well they could accept it, how to respond to it, or to show how shocked they actually were. Well, if you possibly can, Sakurai-san, I would like to talk to him. Personally. Do you think you can persuade him to see me?” the doctor queried after explaining to Sho what might be happening in Jun’s mind at this time.
“I’ll try my best doctor.” Sho promised.
“Okay then. I believe I would see him around not long after our meeting today. Was there anything else you would like to talk about?” the doctor asked.
“I think that was all for now. If there were any changes I would make sure to tell you immediately.” Sho said.
“Understood. Thanks for your help, Sakurai-san. Jun-san was really lucky to have you as his partner. Very caring and attentive.”
Sho smiled bitterly. “I hope that he would be more open to me. I really wanted to help him.” Sho said.
“I’m sure he knew that. Just be patient. You have been dealing with him all these years. If there were anyone to understand him the best it must be you.” The doctor encouraged Sho.
“Thank you, doctor.” Sho shook the doctor’s hand and walked out of the office and headed to his office.
“Don’t you want to see your psychiatrist, Jun?”
“Why should I?”
“You have been having nightmares.”
“I don’t remember any of that.”
Sho sighed. “Fine.” Sho said.
Jun blinked. ‘Why?’ he thought. Why Sho didn’t push him more? Was he tired of him already? Jun actually did remember of the dreams. After several nights of sleeping feeling disoriented, Jun finally realized what Sho was saying. Yes, he had a nightmare. In the dream, he saw how his family got into the accidents. He saw the car came from the front of their car, the lights were blinding. And then it was nothing. He felt numb, and then nothing. But he didn't want to say that to Sho. He didn't want Sho to know. Because he was afraid. And it hurts. It hurts so much.
Not noticing Jun’s gloomy thoughts, Sho stood up and grabbed his coat. “Do you need a ride to the studio?” He asked Jun.
Jun shook his head as the answer.
“Okay. Be careful on the way there.” Sho said before dropping a kiss to Jun’s forehead. Jun gave a small nod. Sho walked to his car and drove off to the office afterwards.
***
Sho didn’t drove off to the office, instead he went to the hospital to meet Jun’s psychiatrist. He has made an appointment beforehand, before he asked Jun to see the doctor himself, knowing Jun’s answer would be negative. Sho was hurt with Jun thought that he couldn’t read him. Who was he kidding? He knew Jun remember those dreams. But what made him said those lies was what Sho could not understand. Didn’t Jun trust him? Sho heaved a heavy sigh. He has arrived at the hospital compound. He tried to calm himself down before he stepped out of the car. It wouldn’t do any good if he was meeting the doctor while feeling so much in stress. When he has calmed enough, Sho got out from his car and walked into the hospital’s building. Getting into the psychiatric department, Sho rode the lift to level 5 where Jun’s doctor’s office located. He knocked on the door and came in at the soft answer came from the inside of the room.
“Good morning, doctor.” Sho greeted slowly.
“Hello Sakurai- san, good morning.” The doctor replied. “What’s up? You looked so stressed this early in the morning.”
Sho smiled at the teasing. He was glad that this doctor was really considerate towards his patients. Giving light humour like that would ease the nerves of the patients who usually in tense whenever they went to seepsychiatrist.
“Yo. Long time no see.” Sho retorted back.
“I would like to say the same to you.”
Sho really could just smile. “You see, I’m not sure if it’s actually me or my partner that needed your help.” He started.
“I would say you both needed it. How was your boyfriend?” the doctor asked while gesturing to Sho to sit on the chair in front of him.
“Not much. He was shutting off again.”
“I see..”
“He has been having nightmares.”
“Since when?” the doctor asked while noting in Jun’s record book.
“Last 3 days? Or 4?” Sho counted back the nights he woke up to Jun’s screaming.
“Do you know what caused it?”
“Jun got back his memories. He asked me about what happened before. In his past life. So I kind of told him everything.”
“Just told him everything or to the extent you went to places?”
“How do you know?” Sho can’t help but to ask. Psychiatrist, really. “We went to places. His old house, the graveyard and.. the place where the accident occurred.” Sho stuttered.
The doctor sighed. “How was his reaction?”
‘It’s the same question as Nino’s!’ Sho thought internally. “He cried. He seemed to have accepted it but a few days after he started to get the nightmares.” Sho explained.
“That’s normal. People don’t usually react to things happened around them immediately. Just when they were calm enough to finally process the things, it comes down to them of what actually happened. At that time they will show the real emotion. How well they could accept it, how to respond to it, or to show how shocked they actually were. Well, if you possibly can, Sakurai-san, I would like to talk to him. Personally. Do you think you can persuade him to see me?” the doctor queried after explaining to Sho what might be happening in Jun’s mind at this time.
“I’ll try my best doctor.” Sho promised.
“Okay then. I believe I would see him around not long after our meeting today. Was there anything else you would like to talk about?” the doctor asked.
“I think that was all for now. If there were any changes I would make sure to tell you immediately.” Sho said.
“Understood. Thanks for your help, Sakurai-san. Jun-san was really lucky to have you as his partner. Very caring and attentive.”
Sho smiled bitterly. “I hope that he would be more open to me. I really wanted to help him.” Sho said.
“I’m sure he knew that. Just be patient. You have been dealing with him all these years. If there were anyone to understand him the best it must be you.” The doctor encouraged Sho.
“Thank you, doctor.” Sho shook the doctor’s hand and walked out of the office and headed to his office.
