Eviternal Love
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shozi_sakurai Title: Eviternal Love
Pairing: SakuMoto
Rating: G
Length: Chaptered
Summary: Matters caused Sho and Jun separated. But eventually, they find each other again.
Notes: I'm working for some flashbacks but who knows when will that be put into use because I'm getting lazy, lazier, laziest everyday. ><
Chapter 6
Jun closes the door to his office and click on the lock automatically. He was still shocked and startled to see his supposed to be father-in-law in the building, after years of silence, suddenly to see him face to face under this condition is too much for him to take. His hands are still trembling, and he nearly collapse to the floor with the amount of nerves wrecking his mind and body.
“Daddy?” Ken shakes Jun lightly to get his attention. “Daddy, are you okay?” he asked. He is scared looking at his daddy like that. Jun is frightened, Ken can sense it, but frightened to what, he does not know. And that scares him to not knowing what troubles his Daddy. “Daddy!?” he shakes again.
Jun leans on the door and slides down, sitting on the floor. He doesn’t look up to Ken, but blindly takes Ken’s hand that’s holding his and pull him onto him, making the boy falls abruptly on his chest. Jun circles his arms around Ken’s small form, gradually tightening his grip.
“Daddy?” Ken’s voice is muffled by his shirt, but Jun is not letting him go at all.
“A minute.”
They sit silently there, Jun is holding Ken close to his chest, feeling Ken’s solid form on top of him and reassures himself that Ken is there, safe and sound and with him. Jun doesn’t know what got into him but seeing Sakurai-san holding his son triggers something in Jun’s heart. What exactly that he was scared about he doesn’t know, but he has that feeling that he can’t let just anyone touch his son. Not at any cost! ‘What was that for?!’ Jun doesn’t realize his hold around Ken becomes tighter until Ken speaks up.
“Daddy?” Ken circles his arms around Jun’s torso. “I’m here.” He reassures. He can hear Jun’s frantic heartbeat and Jun’s arms around him is like a punishing grip. He knows that Jun is not really there with him. Whatever happened to his Daddy after their small encounter with the uncles just now Ken doesn’t understand, but he knows when Jun is in deep worry. And he doesn’t want Jun to be worry. Because he is there. He is there with his Daddy. They are together so there’s nothing to be scared of.
Jun on the other hand, listening to Ken’s words of “I’m here,” something knocks on his heart. Something clicks in his brain when he finally realizes what he was scared about. So that’s it? He is worry about that? Is he being stupid? Is his fears have basis? Ken is his son there’s no way he will let anyone take Ken from him. Not Sakurai-san, not even Sho himself! He will never allow that! There’s no way he would let anyone separate him from his son. If with Sakurai-san appearance now will bring Sho back... he doesn’t exactly sure what to do in he faces Sho in that moment.
“Ken,” Jun finally speaks. “Never leave me, okay?” he lets go of his hold and cups Ken’s face, staring deep into Ken’s eyes.
“Promise.” Ken shows his pinky finger to Jun which Jun takes his whole fist in his arms and brings Ken’s hands to his lips.
“Thank you.” He whispers on Ken’s temple before kissing him softly.
***
Sho finishes his meeting with the housing agent early and doesn’t know why he found himself standing alone in a park. He sees families having picnic under the trees, kids running around with their friends and siblings playing tag games and also people walking their dogs and play catch with them. He feels relax by watching the scenery in front of him and takes a sit on a bench, quite far from the other visitors. He plays with his phone, reading the news and scrolling the social medias, simply wasting time on his own at the park. He tries to find information about Jun in the medias, Facebook, Instagram and Twitter but it seems like Jun is not the kind who mingles in those too much. After some times he gives up and takes his leave.
He drives off absentmindedly, but again he found himself in an unexpected place – the facility Jun grows up after his parents’ death. He looks around, without greeting anyone, looking at the kids leaving there, reminding them of Jun from before. Teenage Jun, skinny and shy type, fierce on the appearance but very fragile at heart. He remembers the day when he finally decided to talk to Jun, Jun looks so tired and defeated, like he has had enough in his life. Guess where were they at that time? – the school roof. He doesn’t exactly sure what Jun intended to do at that time, but he was standing on the divider, leaning heavily on the fence, looking at the ground expressionless. Sho who was always takes his break on the rooftop – his favourite spot to read and have his lunch – saw him, and immediately pulled him off the fence.
“What the hell were you doing?!” he shouted directly at Jun’s face.
Jun glanced at Sho but not answering him. He averted his gaze from Sho’s face and turned to walk away. But Sho, being hot-headed as he always had pulled Jun’s hands and effectively stopped Jun in his track.
“Hey, I’m asking you!”
“Why do you care?” Jun asked back, more like mumbling to himself.
Sho pulls Jun’s hand with a force making Jun turns to him again. Jun was still looking down, not even once lifted his head to show that he was angry or anything. Sho cups Jun’s face with both his palms, lifting his head, finally able to see Jun’s face properly. He nearly flinched looking at Jun’s lifeless eyes, he could see the dread, sadness, defeat, those eyes doesn’t have life in it and he wonders what happened. Black circles around the brown orbs and his face was so skinny Sho can feels every edges on the face.
“Your name?” Sho asked, voice soft.
“Jun.”
“Jun?” Sho called softly. Jun still doesn’t look into Sho’s eyes. “What happened?” his anger flew away when the question left his lips, sudden worry seeped into his heart. “What happened to you? What’s wrong? Were you bullied?” he kept asking, worry evident in every question.
Jun shook his head slowly, still not answering Sho’s question. Then however he found his face mashed on a fabric, a pair of strong hands holding him firm against a solid form, palms rubbing at his back up and down in gentle moves, soothing him in a way he longs it to be. His brain couldn’t process it, it tells him to push away the man hugging him that time but his body protested to do so. He couldn’t find the strength to push the man away, instead, he leans deeper onto the chest, surrenders to the comfort the other man offered. His mind tells him that he would regret this later but his heart said the opposite, too tired to fight anything and Jun thinks that if something going to happened to him that day, he wouldn’t even put up a fight.
Jun jerks upright, rousing from his sleep with hands on his chest. ‘What the hell was that?!’ his mind screamed at him. It’s the first time he dreams of his first day meeting with Sho. Jun pants heavily, trying to come down from the dreams with taking deep breaths. He notices his hands are shaking – his whole body is – and he is crying. He tries to wipe the tears off his face but more are coming that he sobs, sitting upright on the bed and surrenders to the tremors in his heart. He manages to calm down after sometime and lies on the bed again, trying to get rid of the dreams off his mind.
“S-Sho..” he has stop crying but still hiccupping, still trying to calm his racing heart. Jun lies on his side, hand clutching tightly to the necklace around his neck. “Help me..” he pleads in the dark.
***
“Jya, Ken. See you this afternoon, okay?”
“Un. Daddy?”
“Hai?”
“You okay? Why Daddy look so tired?”
Jun stares at Ken’s eyes deeply. He smiles nonetheless. “I’m fine. Just a little tired. Didn’t get good sleep last night.”
“Why so?”
Jun doesn’t answer instead pulls Ken into a hug while smiling affectionately. “Nothing, my dear. Be good at school today too, okay?”
“Okay.” Ken answers with a little pout before walking into the school compound. He turns to wave Jun goodbye and walks into the nursery once he sees his Daddy has walk away from the school ground.
“Sakurai Sho!”
Sho jerks, surprised at the sudden intrusion in his office. “What the hell Aiba-chan?!” he asks, annoyed. Dare his secretary to call him like that!
Unfortunately Aiba-chan just laughs, not caring about his scowling boss in front of him.
“Your father asked me to pass this to you.” He puts the file in front of Sho.
“And he can’t deliver it to me by himself?” Sho takes the file, inspecting the content.
“He said he got stuff to do. He was hurrying outside. Oh! And, he invited you for dinner tonight.”
“Where?” Sho frowns.
Aiba tilts his head in question. “He didn’t mention it. Maybe you can ask him later?”
Sho sighs.
“Bye.” Aiba stands to leave the room.
“Thanks, Aiba!” Sho half shout to his secretary. He heard the reply of “No prob!” before the door closes completely.
Sho puts the file aside, thinking he will take a look later once he finished his current task at hand.
***
Jun just steps out of the building when a voice greeted him.
“Matsumoto-kun?”
Jun stops his track and turn around just to see Sakurai-san standing a few feet away from him.
Jun blinks a few times before he finds his composure again. “Sakurai-san, good afternoon.” He bows his head politely.
“Good afternoon. Out for lunch?”
Jun nods.
“Mind if I join you?”
Jun is torn between shaking and nodding. It would be impolite if he rejects the older man. No matter what had happen between them in the past, Jun still respects him.
“No, I won’t. I would like some company too.”
The smile Sakurai-san shows him is still the same from when Sho first introduces Jun to him. Heart-warming and a very welcoming smile.
They have their lunch at the nearby restaurant. Quite packed with other people since it’s lunch hour, nothing less expected.
“How have you been, Jun-kun?”
“Good. As you see.”
“I’m sorry for being invisible these past years.” Sakurai-san apologizes.
Jun shakes his head. “It’s not your fault. I was being silent too.”
“You have a son.” It’s a statement, not a question.
Jun stops his movement from scooping the rice into his spoon.
“Tell me honestly, Jun. He is Sho’s right?” Sakurai-san stares right into Jun’s eyes.
Jun stops eating completely. Sakurai-san does the same.
“Why are you asking me this suddenly? We met two days ago accidentally and now you’re barging to my company’s building and suddenly speaks about this. I don’t mean to be rude Sakurai-san, but what will you get by suddenly appearing before my eyes and ask about my son? By the way yes, Kento is your grandchild by blood but if you think you can ask for any rights as Kento’s grandfather now you know I won’t give in so easily.”
“Jun-kun, I don’t mean any of that. Not at all. Sorry if I offended you. I just want to see you that’s all. And to tell you that Sho is back in Japan.”
That catches Jun off guard.
“Sho is back?” He murmurs in disbelief.
Sakurai-san nods, smiling slightly at the man in front of him. “Sho is back. He doesn’t mention anything to me about you but I believe he has been looking for you again. I think he will be irritated that I’ve found you first before him.” Sakurai-san chuckles, joking lightly.
Jun eyes staring wide to the front, not really seeing the man in front of him or seems to be listening.
“Jun-kun,” Sakurai calls softly. “Jun-kun, be honest with me. Are you still waiting for Sho?”
Jun visibly tears up at the question. How can he not? Nobody has any ideas of how long he has been waiting for Sho or how he misses Sho. He managed a simple nod but doesn’t have any courage to speak. Who knows what will come out of his mouth after hearing the news?
“He is waiting for you too. He still loves you Jun-kun. He has your picture in a frame on his work desk. Do you want to see him?”
A tear escapes Jun’s eyes, unable to contain anymore.
Sakurai-san reaches for Jun’s hand across the table. “I’m sorry. It was our fault that you two separated for a long time. It’s time for you two to reunite again. Pardon for my rudeness Jun-kun.” He strokes Jun’s hand softly trying to calm the crying man. People inside the restaurant started to throws look at them but Sakurai-san doesn’t bother to care. His supposed to be son-in-law was caught in a whirl emotion and it was his fault. “I’ll talk to Sho tonight about you, I’m sure he will be happy to see you too.” The strokes stop once Jun able to put himself together again.
Jun excuses himself and goes to the washroom. Once deemed to be decent again he walks back to their table and finishes their lunches.
Pairing: SakuMoto
Rating: G
Length: Chaptered
Summary: Matters caused Sho and Jun separated. But eventually, they find each other again.
Notes: I'm working for some flashbacks but who knows when will that be put into use because I'm getting lazy, lazier, laziest everyday. ><
Chapter 6
Jun closes the door to his office and click on the lock automatically. He was still shocked and startled to see his supposed to be father-in-law in the building, after years of silence, suddenly to see him face to face under this condition is too much for him to take. His hands are still trembling, and he nearly collapse to the floor with the amount of nerves wrecking his mind and body.
“Daddy?” Ken shakes Jun lightly to get his attention. “Daddy, are you okay?” he asked. He is scared looking at his daddy like that. Jun is frightened, Ken can sense it, but frightened to what, he does not know. And that scares him to not knowing what troubles his Daddy. “Daddy!?” he shakes again.
Jun leans on the door and slides down, sitting on the floor. He doesn’t look up to Ken, but blindly takes Ken’s hand that’s holding his and pull him onto him, making the boy falls abruptly on his chest. Jun circles his arms around Ken’s small form, gradually tightening his grip.
“Daddy?” Ken’s voice is muffled by his shirt, but Jun is not letting him go at all.
“A minute.”
They sit silently there, Jun is holding Ken close to his chest, feeling Ken’s solid form on top of him and reassures himself that Ken is there, safe and sound and with him. Jun doesn’t know what got into him but seeing Sakurai-san holding his son triggers something in Jun’s heart. What exactly that he was scared about he doesn’t know, but he has that feeling that he can’t let just anyone touch his son. Not at any cost! ‘What was that for?!’ Jun doesn’t realize his hold around Ken becomes tighter until Ken speaks up.
“Daddy?” Ken circles his arms around Jun’s torso. “I’m here.” He reassures. He can hear Jun’s frantic heartbeat and Jun’s arms around him is like a punishing grip. He knows that Jun is not really there with him. Whatever happened to his Daddy after their small encounter with the uncles just now Ken doesn’t understand, but he knows when Jun is in deep worry. And he doesn’t want Jun to be worry. Because he is there. He is there with his Daddy. They are together so there’s nothing to be scared of.
Jun on the other hand, listening to Ken’s words of “I’m here,” something knocks on his heart. Something clicks in his brain when he finally realizes what he was scared about. So that’s it? He is worry about that? Is he being stupid? Is his fears have basis? Ken is his son there’s no way he will let anyone take Ken from him. Not Sakurai-san, not even Sho himself! He will never allow that! There’s no way he would let anyone separate him from his son. If with Sakurai-san appearance now will bring Sho back... he doesn’t exactly sure what to do in he faces Sho in that moment.
“Ken,” Jun finally speaks. “Never leave me, okay?” he lets go of his hold and cups Ken’s face, staring deep into Ken’s eyes.
“Promise.” Ken shows his pinky finger to Jun which Jun takes his whole fist in his arms and brings Ken’s hands to his lips.
“Thank you.” He whispers on Ken’s temple before kissing him softly.
***
Sho finishes his meeting with the housing agent early and doesn’t know why he found himself standing alone in a park. He sees families having picnic under the trees, kids running around with their friends and siblings playing tag games and also people walking their dogs and play catch with them. He feels relax by watching the scenery in front of him and takes a sit on a bench, quite far from the other visitors. He plays with his phone, reading the news and scrolling the social medias, simply wasting time on his own at the park. He tries to find information about Jun in the medias, Facebook, Instagram and Twitter but it seems like Jun is not the kind who mingles in those too much. After some times he gives up and takes his leave.
He drives off absentmindedly, but again he found himself in an unexpected place – the facility Jun grows up after his parents’ death. He looks around, without greeting anyone, looking at the kids leaving there, reminding them of Jun from before. Teenage Jun, skinny and shy type, fierce on the appearance but very fragile at heart. He remembers the day when he finally decided to talk to Jun, Jun looks so tired and defeated, like he has had enough in his life. Guess where were they at that time? – the school roof. He doesn’t exactly sure what Jun intended to do at that time, but he was standing on the divider, leaning heavily on the fence, looking at the ground expressionless. Sho who was always takes his break on the rooftop – his favourite spot to read and have his lunch – saw him, and immediately pulled him off the fence.
“What the hell were you doing?!” he shouted directly at Jun’s face.
Jun glanced at Sho but not answering him. He averted his gaze from Sho’s face and turned to walk away. But Sho, being hot-headed as he always had pulled Jun’s hands and effectively stopped Jun in his track.
“Hey, I’m asking you!”
“Why do you care?” Jun asked back, more like mumbling to himself.
Sho pulls Jun’s hand with a force making Jun turns to him again. Jun was still looking down, not even once lifted his head to show that he was angry or anything. Sho cups Jun’s face with both his palms, lifting his head, finally able to see Jun’s face properly. He nearly flinched looking at Jun’s lifeless eyes, he could see the dread, sadness, defeat, those eyes doesn’t have life in it and he wonders what happened. Black circles around the brown orbs and his face was so skinny Sho can feels every edges on the face.
“Your name?” Sho asked, voice soft.
“Jun.”
“Jun?” Sho called softly. Jun still doesn’t look into Sho’s eyes. “What happened?” his anger flew away when the question left his lips, sudden worry seeped into his heart. “What happened to you? What’s wrong? Were you bullied?” he kept asking, worry evident in every question.
Jun shook his head slowly, still not answering Sho’s question. Then however he found his face mashed on a fabric, a pair of strong hands holding him firm against a solid form, palms rubbing at his back up and down in gentle moves, soothing him in a way he longs it to be. His brain couldn’t process it, it tells him to push away the man hugging him that time but his body protested to do so. He couldn’t find the strength to push the man away, instead, he leans deeper onto the chest, surrenders to the comfort the other man offered. His mind tells him that he would regret this later but his heart said the opposite, too tired to fight anything and Jun thinks that if something going to happened to him that day, he wouldn’t even put up a fight.
Jun jerks upright, rousing from his sleep with hands on his chest. ‘What the hell was that?!’ his mind screamed at him. It’s the first time he dreams of his first day meeting with Sho. Jun pants heavily, trying to come down from the dreams with taking deep breaths. He notices his hands are shaking – his whole body is – and he is crying. He tries to wipe the tears off his face but more are coming that he sobs, sitting upright on the bed and surrenders to the tremors in his heart. He manages to calm down after sometime and lies on the bed again, trying to get rid of the dreams off his mind.
“S-Sho..” he has stop crying but still hiccupping, still trying to calm his racing heart. Jun lies on his side, hand clutching tightly to the necklace around his neck. “Help me..” he pleads in the dark.
***
“Jya, Ken. See you this afternoon, okay?”
“Un. Daddy?”
“Hai?”
“You okay? Why Daddy look so tired?”
Jun stares at Ken’s eyes deeply. He smiles nonetheless. “I’m fine. Just a little tired. Didn’t get good sleep last night.”
“Why so?”
Jun doesn’t answer instead pulls Ken into a hug while smiling affectionately. “Nothing, my dear. Be good at school today too, okay?”
“Okay.” Ken answers with a little pout before walking into the school compound. He turns to wave Jun goodbye and walks into the nursery once he sees his Daddy has walk away from the school ground.
“Sakurai Sho!”
Sho jerks, surprised at the sudden intrusion in his office. “What the hell Aiba-chan?!” he asks, annoyed. Dare his secretary to call him like that!
Unfortunately Aiba-chan just laughs, not caring about his scowling boss in front of him.
“Your father asked me to pass this to you.” He puts the file in front of Sho.
“And he can’t deliver it to me by himself?” Sho takes the file, inspecting the content.
“He said he got stuff to do. He was hurrying outside. Oh! And, he invited you for dinner tonight.”
“Where?” Sho frowns.
Aiba tilts his head in question. “He didn’t mention it. Maybe you can ask him later?”
Sho sighs.
“Bye.” Aiba stands to leave the room.
“Thanks, Aiba!” Sho half shout to his secretary. He heard the reply of “No prob!” before the door closes completely.
Sho puts the file aside, thinking he will take a look later once he finished his current task at hand.
***
Jun just steps out of the building when a voice greeted him.
“Matsumoto-kun?”
Jun stops his track and turn around just to see Sakurai-san standing a few feet away from him.
Jun blinks a few times before he finds his composure again. “Sakurai-san, good afternoon.” He bows his head politely.
“Good afternoon. Out for lunch?”
Jun nods.
“Mind if I join you?”
Jun is torn between shaking and nodding. It would be impolite if he rejects the older man. No matter what had happen between them in the past, Jun still respects him.
“No, I won’t. I would like some company too.”
The smile Sakurai-san shows him is still the same from when Sho first introduces Jun to him. Heart-warming and a very welcoming smile.
They have their lunch at the nearby restaurant. Quite packed with other people since it’s lunch hour, nothing less expected.
“How have you been, Jun-kun?”
“Good. As you see.”
“I’m sorry for being invisible these past years.” Sakurai-san apologizes.
Jun shakes his head. “It’s not your fault. I was being silent too.”
“You have a son.” It’s a statement, not a question.
Jun stops his movement from scooping the rice into his spoon.
“Tell me honestly, Jun. He is Sho’s right?” Sakurai-san stares right into Jun’s eyes.
Jun stops eating completely. Sakurai-san does the same.
“Why are you asking me this suddenly? We met two days ago accidentally and now you’re barging to my company’s building and suddenly speaks about this. I don’t mean to be rude Sakurai-san, but what will you get by suddenly appearing before my eyes and ask about my son? By the way yes, Kento is your grandchild by blood but if you think you can ask for any rights as Kento’s grandfather now you know I won’t give in so easily.”
“Jun-kun, I don’t mean any of that. Not at all. Sorry if I offended you. I just want to see you that’s all. And to tell you that Sho is back in Japan.”
That catches Jun off guard.
“Sho is back?” He murmurs in disbelief.
Sakurai-san nods, smiling slightly at the man in front of him. “Sho is back. He doesn’t mention anything to me about you but I believe he has been looking for you again. I think he will be irritated that I’ve found you first before him.” Sakurai-san chuckles, joking lightly.
Jun eyes staring wide to the front, not really seeing the man in front of him or seems to be listening.
“Jun-kun,” Sakurai calls softly. “Jun-kun, be honest with me. Are you still waiting for Sho?”
Jun visibly tears up at the question. How can he not? Nobody has any ideas of how long he has been waiting for Sho or how he misses Sho. He managed a simple nod but doesn’t have any courage to speak. Who knows what will come out of his mouth after hearing the news?
“He is waiting for you too. He still loves you Jun-kun. He has your picture in a frame on his work desk. Do you want to see him?”
A tear escapes Jun’s eyes, unable to contain anymore.
Sakurai-san reaches for Jun’s hand across the table. “I’m sorry. It was our fault that you two separated for a long time. It’s time for you two to reunite again. Pardon for my rudeness Jun-kun.” He strokes Jun’s hand softly trying to calm the crying man. People inside the restaurant started to throws look at them but Sakurai-san doesn’t bother to care. His supposed to be son-in-law was caught in a whirl emotion and it was his fault. “I’ll talk to Sho tonight about you, I’m sure he will be happy to see you too.” The strokes stop once Jun able to put himself together again.
Jun excuses himself and goes to the washroom. Once deemed to be decent again he walks back to their table and finishes their lunches.
